She snuggeled with me

Neek usually sleeps in a crate. She HATES it...She whines when I put her in and whines when she wakes up to come out. Getting her in is a challenge each night. I know - crate games are in order ;) She loves her X-pen. But the thought of dragging it up and down the steps late at night and early morning - well I am lazy. Guess I expect her to love it as much as Maddie who will run so fast to her crate and whines for us to open the door so she can sleep..Well, I need to realize Neeko isn't Maddie; nor is she Jake or Zoe

So this morning she woke up around 4:15 am crying to go potty. I let her out. Then when we came back in, I let her free in the room. She hopped up on the bed and actually snuggle next to me. She put her head on my legs. If i moved, she moved so she could lay on me. It was awfully sweet.She has not done that since she has been in our home.

I give her a hard time - she isn't the drivey little puppy I had hoped for. It's like I just can't tap into that place in her. I will admit; it is frustrating. She isn't the dog I was hoping for. She doesn't have that competitive drive for the games as Jake does. Jake spoiled me in flyball. And Maddie has spoiled me in training. Maddie is so eager to learn and so willing to work for me (but that is one of the wonderful traits of an APBT)

Neek can be fast - when she is chasing Jake. Someone said to me "maybe flyball isn't in her stars". I will admit - that is why i took her - to have another flyball dog. And if she doesn't do flyball - well then what? Three dogs that can't/won't play the game I have come to love....Boy am I projecting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need to remember where she came from - what her life was like before. Plus, she isn't even a year yet. And i need to remember - she has only been with us 2 months. Just 2 months! She will continue to show her true self - her true colors. I am sure she is still feeling her way around But hopefully, this morning, I saw a little glimmer of a pup that trusts and wants to be close - that knows she will have ONE place to lay her little head at night. And you know what - maybe she isn't the pup I really want, but the one the Universe thinks I really need.